SHANNON, MIRTH AND ZOEY HISTORY
(GROOMING/PEDOPHILIA, NSFW OR SEXUAL BEHAVIORS, ABUSE AND MANIPULATION)
MY HISTORY WITH SHANNON :
(NOTE : THE WHOLE EXPLAINATION WILL BE MESSY AND CONFUSING BUT THIS IS BASED OFF WHAT I CAN
REMEMBER AND GATHER FROM OLD SCREENSHOTS & CONVERSATIONS ON THE ":]" SERVER. )
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On March 21–22, 2021, I met Shannon on a mutual server I was on to ask for credit for the icons he used on an animation he made. We talked it out and put credit on the videos.
1-2 days after that, he joined my old server to check out and have a conversation with me and my friend Enzo about being friends with us. The more we interact with each other, the more Shannon hinted that they have a thing for me, saying they're simping for me or just straight up flirting, but I completely shrugged it off because I looked up to Shannon around that time. I've drawn and animated little gifts for Shannon. Shannon actually thought this was me hinting that I have a thing for him, so his flirting got more frequent as time passed, and around that time, Enzo tends to make a lot of sexual jokes that caused a lot of weird tension between me and Shannon.--- On April 3rd
we decided to make an SMP and play Minecraft together on a server, hoping we could get to know each other more. Shannon would give me a lot of notes and messages on a book and quill, and we would send them to each other like mail. As well as him having an item that's named after my real name (which is the Minecraft rose or poppy), this is where I started to develop romantic feelings for Shannon and started to flirt back whenever he did, we started to VC a lot more frequently.
-- April 12th
Shannon decided to confess through a Book and Quill on Minecraft at 2–3 a.m. We were both in a VC listening to sleepy fish music, that didn't really stop him from dating me cause he had developed an emotional, romantic and sexual connection to me. but on April 18th, me and Shannon officially dated, we often talk about a lot of sexual things and joke about it, and in a certain hour of the day, at 12am in the middle of the night, we would have sessions that involve NSFW on a VC that he named "Keith's Horny Hour".
Shannon tends to tease and talk about the things he would do to me, including when i'm asleep. i didn't know how to really show discomfort so i went with it. he also had attempted to isolate me away from people cause of his fear of being abandoned, he would get angry/yell at me when i decide to choose what i do instead of him.ZOEY AND MIRTH'S INVOLVEMENT :
on April 13th, Zoey dm'ed me, telling me that Him and Mirth started dating, on the 18th after finding out me and Shannon officially became a thing, he started to tease me about Shannon. and also sends me suggestive artwork Mirth drew and has requested me to make NSFW of both of them.
Zoey around this time was aware that i was 13 when Shannon told them, and he said that it was fine cause of the age of consent laws in the Philippines. (BEFORE IT WAS CHANGED TO 16) LINK OF THE VIDEO OF HIM SAYING THIS.
-- Around in the middle of May & June
Mirth or Zoey created a server that's for friends when the Mirth situation was at it's peak, they invited me and Shannon to hang around. around my time there, there would be times where Zoey would fake moan on call, and he convinced Shannon to do the same thing when i was in the call with the both of them. a recording of it did exist once, but since the server has been deleted, there's no trace left of it. and Zoey had once asked for permission if me, Shannon and him could have a threesome. the sexual behaviors are normalized throughout the whole entire 1-2 years.
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Zoey and Mirth were invited to the server "Horizon Hangout" where me and Shannon hung out and talk to other friends and play the mc server.
Zoey and Mirth joined the server specifically to hang out with me and Shannon more after Mirth's expose
Zoey continued with the fake moaning on calls, and tease me on calls whenever i'm alone with him (them trying to normalize this behavior)
Me, Shannon, Zoey and Mirth played a lot of minecraft together, and we all play on it every night and cause of that, Zoe and Mirth had developed feelings towards me and Shannon and they were eager to start a poly relationship, Shannon had shared a discomfort about poly relationships, i have shared mine as well but i didn't know how to say no or tell them in a light manner.
--- JUNE 8TH (SHANNON'S BIRTHDAY)
I started venting to Shannon about what i feel towards the relationship between me and him, and aswell as Zoey and Mirth. i was being completely transparent about what i felt towards him, but his immediate response to it was to guilt-trip me about his jealousy to other people, he wouldn't let me hang out with other people, even with Zoe and Mirth. he started to dismiss my vents and tells me that i shouldn't be talking about this on his birthday.
Mirth and Zoey confronted Shannon about this and had scolded him to take a break off discord and being in contact with me. Zoey and Mirth told me that they want me to have a better childhood, they said. but in reality, it's a way for Zoey to take advantage of me while Shannon's out on his break.
-- A DAY AFTER HIS BIRTHDAYI created my account (the current one i use) a day after his birthday to check up on him when he was supposed to be on break. and i faked my break on my old account (GRAYSCALE) so i wouldn't have to worry about Zoey and Mirth bothering me. I created a server so me and Shannon wouldn't have to talk in dms and is able to hide the server in folders. (This is the same server Redknight used to be in, where most of the evidence of his sexual behavior and his overall disgusting actions) me and Shannon decided to keep our relationship private and act like we're just friends.
Few days after the account's creation, more problems arise
with Zoey leaking my account's user, and another expose situation."Zoey and Cossy took you away from me and asking you about something that made you feel shit and yet Zoey couldn't stop herself being such an overprotective pussy, and I really hate them for that, they promised you to give you another chance of a better childhood,,," - Shannon
Through out almost half of the year, it was a constant back and fourth between me, Shannon, Mirth and Zoey.
Zoey was mainly the one who had attempted to tear my relationship with Shannon twice, manipulated me and abused me and the others.
-- JULY 1ST
Shannon and Mirth would complain about how Zoey spends more time with me than either of them that it concerns them and had assumed me and Zoey had feelings for eachother, Zoey had attempted to try and isolate me away from Mirth, Zoey, Preston and etc.
This causes the whole group to separate for a week or two, but i ended up reaching out to Zoey and talked things out followed up by everyone else.
-- JULY 21st
Zoey would constantly drag me into calls, trying to scare me off from the amount of serious calls me and him had, i've gotten PTSD from the amount of calls that involve him yelling at me, and something bad always happens after the calls. Zoey barely cared about what i felt around the time and has been mentally abusing me. cause of him constantly guilt-tripping and manipulating me, this caused me to have a false view of him which lead to me to always be forgiving when it comes to him. (this would also drag on to Mug's situation.)
-- AUGUST TO OCTOBER
Throughout August and September, Mirth, Zoey, Shannon and Me would hang out in a server with other members, this is when me and Shannon are still faking that we're not a thing. Zoey would still do fake moaning, sexual jokes and sometimes would try and convince me to make sexual art or art for him in general. Mirth was struggling with their Mental health around this time cause of their family, and her situation so she kept on separating herself away from us.
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On October 6th, Me, Zoey, Mirth, Shannon and Preston were in a call together, i was streaming myself drawing, while the others watch me, we were listening to music on the music bot, Mirth decided to play EATEOT on the bot to challenge everyone on the call to who listens to it the longest, She didn't know i had a trigger for it, i started panicking in the call, saying i'm not ready to listen to EATEOT. Zoey and the others tried to convince me to try and listen to it, Mirth got angry at me that i couldn't listen to it, i moved to a different vc and Zoey joined to comfort me, meanwhile Preston made a server that's specifically for Mirth and Shannon to be in, just cause i was gripping onto Zoey when i was panicking about EATEOT. Preston proceeded to talk shit behind me cause of it, saying how i'm too sensitive and Mirth agreed.I cannot remember much after those, but there was a time where a document about Zoey was in the makes, that's supposed to cover Zoey's disgusting sexual, predatory and manipulative behavior to minors
SCREENSHOT OF THE DOCUMENT EXISTING (IT'S NO LONGER AVAILABLE SINCE IT'S DELETED.)
THE ANIMATION MADE RELATING TO IT
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SHANNON'S DISGUSTING BEHAVIOUR (Continuation)
Shannon in private, he would use me for his sexual desires. he had recorded me and him moaning on calls multiple times, has actual videos and voice recordings of me masturbating. he had admitted that he would like to sexualize a younger version of me, has admitted into liking beastiality, age play, size difference, would send cp/loli porn on the nsfw channels and compare it with me and him.
he tends to masturbate silently whenever i'm in calls with him, and i was very aware that he was actively doing it everyday. he also pleads and hints that he would want either voice recordings or video recordings of me masturbating, and he would also request or give me ideas on what NSFW i should draw and he indulges on this A LOT. this would happen very often, almost everyday.
and i've developed a mindset that sex was a way to show romantic affection to someone.
what's even more disgusting is that this happens so frequently that i believed that this was a good way to cope from my own insecurities, this caused me to inappropriately talk to people around my age and draw nsfw of minors. (i've completely dropped this behavior and i do not act upon nor agree with this. i apologize for the people who were affected from this.)
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— (NOVEMBER 14th 2021)
back when i still had account access to Shannon's google account, i've had an idea of making his apology for him cause he was venting so much about his situation with me and i felt bad.THE SCREENSHOT OF ME MAKING THE APOLOGY FOR HIMIt had partially worked, but people started to go to my own channel and started asking questions that i couldn't answer, so i replied in retaliation.
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-- NOVEMBER 23RD, 2021
Where i discovered Dave and Bambi, i had immediately fixated onto the mod, and it was the only thing i talked about to Shannon. he immediately was irritated by it at first, but he suddenly indulged onto it by teasing me about the characters and convincing me to make NSFW out of them to fulfil his sexual desires (aka his cuckolding kink).
around in the middle of December, i've started to move out of the place i used to live in, and my connection there was horrible so i couldn't text Shannon as much. but whenever i get the chance to, i usually talk in the Gapple server, i was finally able to talk to different people again.
-- but at December 31st - Jan 1st
i've started to talk less to Shannon and started focusing on the Gapple server more, Shannon would then try to guilt-trip me so i can respond and feel guilty for not talking to him as much as before. the Golden Apple discord server had made me comfortable using my old typing quirk i've had a few years back, i've been secretly venting about Shannon to a few people on Gapple, referring him as my girlfriend so no one can bat an eye that it was him. in one of the conversations i had with him, i used my typing quirk in front of him for the first time, Shannon didn't like it and started questioning why i was using it. but then Shannon claimed that he is getting "traumatized" over me using a typing quirk, i've already lost interest in being in a relationship with him, we had an whole entire argument about it, he was guilt-tripping in the middle of the argument, sent me images and a video of him SELF HARMING as a last resort to guilt-trip me to stay, until i had enough of it, i snapped and told him to remove anything that has anything related to him and broke up with him.-- AROUND JANUARY 15-30 2022
i gave Shannon another chance as a friend, as he told me that he is the only closest filipino friend i can have. i've started talking about Dave and Bambi and mainly Villezen to him, he would sexual joke about me and Villezen a lot which caused me to have very disgusting thoughts whenever it's been brought up, i was very against of this. (screenshots of this is on the google drive link.)
this caused me to talk more less and vent about it to Villezen's dms, which caused Vill to get overprotective, while i didn't want people to know that it was Shannon, i held him back from contacting him.
somewhere at February, Shannon would edit his messages on my dms with him, and i notice this late.
there was a time where Shannon was making a response document about my relationship with him, trying to paint himself as a victim and paint me as a villain. he sent me screenshots of the parts where the NSFW art was drawn. he added those on the document. i do not know what happened to that document, but it seems as if it wasn't being worked on anymore.
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SCREENSHOT #1SCREENSHOT #2SCREENSHOT #3
------------------------------------[The reason why I have gone through this section at length and in detail is because I want everyone to know why I behaved the way I did before bringing more light onto my situation with the people in the document. I was very young and impressionable when this situation had initially occurred, and the amount of trauma that it has given me has really influenced the way I have acted towards the people I know. I'm not using my trauma as an excuse for my actions, and I'm fully aware of the terrible things that I have done to so many people, but it's important that I explain as to why I behaved this way to begin with, as these actions were not a result of me being an evil or malicious person, most of them were just me being taken advantage of by the wrong person at the wrong time, which has been a reoccurring for me.]
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-LINK TO THE REST OF THE SCREENSHOTS (GOOGLE DRIVE)
